I chose to gamble, let my life be on hold, wallow in old emotions, hide the truth, and live in poverty just to fuel the escape. I spent all the mone I earned at work and most of my marriage settlement on gambling and basic living. I spent most of my marriage settlement which equated to about $40 thousand dollars and by the time I 'm sitting here at this site writing this post I'm sitting with some of that money still in place.

My story is long with many details but I will say that I ended up lieing to myself and those around me. I ended up spending all day at the casino many times. But, unlike what you say about one machine, I jumped from machine to machine. I tried to stop on my own many times during the escalation of my spending and time spent at the casino. I guess I was addicted to relationship and could not let go. I went with him many times, we were very codependant and he had other addiction issues. I spent my first $500 dollars that evening and found the loss very hard to cope with.

The addiction set in when I was feeling really upset and lonely one evening when he was with another woman. Then I explored some other machines and I won about $80. We went a few times and I felt badly about losing 20 dollars to the machine. It felt so foreign and not really like anything I could relate to. I entered a casino, a place that I never thought twice about, when an old boyfriend suggested one too many times that we explore the place because we lived in a very depressed area without much to do so why not. I was looking for some people who could understand the specific realm of slot addiction and compulsive gambling. I'd love to share my story of my addiction to slot machines here with you. Hello STAR! How wonderful that you responded to this post.

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